(Panic attack. Laundry Pile? Same diff.)
It isn't uncommon for me to feel anxious before going out of town. I often struggle with back and forths about "Should I go?" or "Should I stay?"
It is silly really. But I want to make sure that I am not being prompted to stay home and ignoring that prompting. Yet, I also don't want to not go on a trip if these feelings were simply a result of having a panic attack , rather than a prompting.
Welcome to my stupid brain. The back and forth that goes on in this little noggin' o' mine are annoying at best. Especially when I simply want to live my life and do what is right.
I wish my earnest desire to understand the difference between promptings and anxiety would be enough to help me recognize the clear difference.
Wouldn't that be nice?
But here I sit. I decided not to go on my trip, hoping that would mean I'd feel peace. I still feel anxious. But my mommy and my husband agree, I should just stick with a decision, try and relax, and move forward and not think about it.
Continuing the back and forth would be enough to make me insane. So, I'll try and follow their advice.
Although, I can't help but be sad. I was really excited to go see my family. I love and miss them a ton.
Here's to hoping I get better at recognizing where my feelings are coming from. For reals.
On a more positive note, check out what I found at D.I. the other day!
With winter time coming around it is going to be awesome for snuggling up on the couch and staying warm! Forget all this walking upstairs to the linen closet business. We've got a blanket bucket ;].
Do you struggle with anxiety? What has worked for you in combating it? Or have you found any awesome treasure lately? I'd love to hear both! =D
Hey Megan, I'm so sorry to hear that you were feeling anxious today and had to cancel your trip. I've struggled with anxiety at various times in my life so I feel ya. Last year I got this book from the library and found it hugely helpful to me.
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It helped me understand what was going on, physiologically, in my body when I felt anxious so I could better identify anxiety when it came and then cut it off before it got out of hand. It's a slow process, for sure, but definitely worth the effort. Anyhow, I thought you might find it helpful since you are hoping to be able to distinguish and discern between prompting vs anxiety.
In the meantime, BLANKET BUCKET!
I have also had similar experiences!! Don't you hate that??? For me I think to myself, "how would I feel if I stayed?" then "how would I feel if I went?" and that normally helps to clarify what I'm feeling...I'm sorry you've been struggling! Those buckets are AWESOME!!!
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you are struggling with anxiety. This scripture always helps me a lot. Doctrine and Covenants 8:2, “Yea, behold, I will tell you in your mind and in your heart, by the Holy Ghost, which shall come upon you and which shall dwell in your heart.”
ReplyDeleteThe Holy Ghost doesn't just prompt one or the other. If it's a prompting it is to both.
I decided not to go on my trip, hoping that would mean I'd feel peace. I still feel anxious. But my mommy and my husband agree, I should just stick with a decision, try and relax, and move forward and not think about it. http://panicawayhelp.org
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