(Panic attack. Laundry Pile? Same diff.)
It isn't uncommon for me to feel anxious before going out of town. I often struggle with back and forths about "Should I go?" or "Should I stay?"
It is silly really. But I want to make sure that I am not being prompted to stay home and ignoring that prompting. Yet, I also don't want to not go on a trip if these feelings were simply a result of having a panic attack , rather than a prompting.
Welcome to my stupid brain. The back and forth that goes on in this little noggin' o' mine are annoying at best. Especially when I simply want to live my life and do what is right.
I wish my earnest desire to understand the difference between promptings and anxiety would be enough to help me recognize the clear difference.
Wouldn't that be nice?
But here I sit. I decided not to go on my trip, hoping that would mean I'd feel peace. I still feel anxious. But my mommy and my husband agree, I should just stick with a decision, try and relax, and move forward and not think about it.
Continuing the back and forth would be enough to make me insane. So, I'll try and follow their advice.
Although, I can't help but be sad. I was really excited to go see my family. I love and miss them a ton.
Here's to hoping I get better at recognizing where my feelings are coming from. For reals.
On a more positive note, check out what I found at D.I. the other day!
With winter time coming around it is going to be awesome for snuggling up on the couch and staying warm! Forget all this walking upstairs to the linen closet business. We've got a blanket bucket ;].
Do you struggle with anxiety? What has worked for you in combating it? Or have you found any awesome treasure lately? I'd love to hear both! =D